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The Very Me I Could Not Be More Of






shall I dare open up my heart?

will I not be disappointed?

am I not having childish dreams?

childish dreams of never being sad or getting hurt..

am I not still a child not knowing how to deal with a broken heart or how to defend herself?

am I not the very me that I could not be more of?

am I not the girl with ongoing changes in her mood and feelings but with the same unchanging fears and personality?

shall I dare talk about my feelings? 


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