A World Inside Of Me

There is a world inside of me
I cannot describe nor give shape to.

Is it a calm world or a loud one?
Is it full of brightness or
did darkness cover all of its places?
How many places does it even have?

There is a world I want to discover
but I don't know where I have to start
nor do I know where I have to come back to.

Is it possible to come back without losing myself?

I don't have a map nor do I have the equipment.
I'm empty-handed.

This world I speak of, no one can see it but me.
No one can know about it but me.
No one can feel it but me.

Sometimes there is rain and other times
there is nothing but sunshine
but the latter won't last long.
Well, it didn't till today.

There is a world full of adventures and magic,
a world full of emotions and sensations.
A world full of me, yet far away from me.

It's a world in the deepest corners of myself,
no rational human being would ever dare to go there.

It's too deep in there.
Many things I lost there I cannot find again.

Even those I didn't even know I had lost.

Picture credits: Pinterest

Comments

A Soulmate

Even the thought of me having a soulmate is dreamlike.. An incredible dream.. Well is, there someone like a soulmate? Just the thought for him to exist somewhere in this world is heart warming.. Will I ever meet him? My soulmate? If I have one.. How beautiful it must be to have someone whose soul is familiar to yours.. To have someone who thinks and feels the same way as you.. How amazing it must feel.. Will I ever meet you? Are you there? Can you find me? Even if I'm hiding from the world? What's meant to be will be, right? But do I still have to search for you? What if I miss you out of the crowd.. What if I won't recognize you? Would you be mad? Would I be broken? If this is gonna happen then I hope for you that you don't exist.. Because I couldn't endure not meeting you.. Stay well, my goodnight dream

An Eternal Beginning

You know I'm the type of person who only loves stories with happy endings. As soon as the ending is happy it will be fine I use to think. But somehow I got really sad after I finally finished the novel "Always". The reason may be the story full of hardships and heartbreaks. But the ending is so much like me.. Like my prefers.. Why would I get sad? I'm questioning myself. And I've got my answer. It's the very point that I don't like endings. Whether it's happy or not. A story shouldn't end. New stories should begin. Always. But one shouldn't end. I don't like endings. It's like everything's over. And that's not happy. That's also why I love spring more than the other seasons. Spring is a new beginning. And it always was a new beginning for me, my mind, and my heart. Maybe that's why I also never get to finish something I set my mind to but instead begin new things each day. Dream about new goals and don&

Protect My Soul

Yâ Rabbi, I'm scared. I'm scared of my own heart. I don't want to think about anyone. I just have found you. Again. But this time I won't let go of you. Don't let me go either. I just have freed my heart and opened the doors so that I could breathe again. Yâ Allâh, you're the only one whom my heart belongs to. You created me and the whole universum. All lives belong to you and so do each heart too. I know that you can lead each heart. Don't let bad thoughts find me. I don't want to get into depression because of some mortal feelings anymore. I know that this dunya is a test for us. I want to graduate with ease from it. I don't want my heart to cry anymore. I know that your mercy is the only thing I need. Yâ Allâh, protect my heart for i only trust the everlasting you whom my whole life belongs to. ~03.05.2017 I just found this old writing in my notes which i wanted to share.~

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