The Very Me I Could Not Be More Of

shall I dare open up my heart?

will I not be disappointed?

am I not having childish dreams?

childish dreams of never being sad or getting hurt..

am I not still a child not knowing how to deal with a broken heart or how to defend herself?

am I not the very me that I could not be more of?

am I not the girl with ongoing changes in her mood and feelings but with the same unchanging fears and personality?

shall I dare talk about my feelings?

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/31.01.17/ "I don't know you and you don't know me. But I want to know you. Do you also want to know me? Me, not my characteristics or behavior. I'm asking you if you want to know my inner Me, my inner self, my thoughts and carings, my reasons for my feelings, and my feelings without any reasons. Do you want to know my inner self which cannot be influenced by external influences? You're the one I want to share everything with. I want to share everything precious in my life with you. I want to talk to you, to explain myself and also not explain myself. I want you to know everything about me without me needing to say a word. Will you one day just understand what's written in my eyes? Will you know the truth when I'll say that I never cared for you and never even thought of you? Will you see the truth which is written under the unspoken words? Will you see it as the only one who is able to see it?"

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